The days before, the day of, and the
days after December 25, 2025, just felt lackluster and uneasy. I had no plans.
But I managed to fill it with something I did not do much, I napped, I napped on
the couch in front of my television with Lily (my younger pug) on my lap. Yes, extremely
exciting.
Nonetheless, my holiday started in
the early afternoon of December 23, 2025, at the dental office where I
continued my restorative dental work. More fillings and follow-ups. Since I was
on holiday, I did not let my cavity fillings and local numbing agents in my
mouth interfere with my joy of being off work. So, I got me some soft-serve
from Cruze Farms, so delicious but puzzling, I have never experienced soft-serve
feeling hot against my lips. Regardless, I enjoyed my soft-serve and caught a
glimpse of Santa Claus on Gay Street/Downtown.
Throughout my holiday, the thought
of returning to work to confront my obligations and load of work made me
uneasy. The last two years of school have been my major stressor but since I have
taken this year off from school, work has taken that honor. Still, I was
missing those specific objectives and goals that I acquired from school. Usually,
during school I try to keep my head above water and catch my breath during the holiday
breaks. This holiday break I dwelled on being 41 years old, not going home to
California, and no movie on Christmas Day and soaked up my sorrows with yellow
moist cake with chocolate frosting and bowls full of pozole. I will plan my
next holiday break better and keep searching for what is golden and eternal.
